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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
6:03 AM
I realized that it really is hard to shy away from tears of a love that never will be reciprocated.
As much as I try to control my emotions, I could not because everything just falls apart -
like it is meant to be that way. I struggle so hard to fight back my tears and smile to show everyone, especially him, that I am alright. But in the end, I am the loser of my own game. In the end, I always end up crying. Crying over things that I could not decipher why and mourning over things that are not even worth it.
After all, that's the only thing I can do while I'm torn between forgetting and waiting. Cry.
I thought years of suffering would make me strong. That enduring the pain would make me immune to future ones. I was wrong. It was the opposite, it made me fragile. It made me unable to control my own feelings.
Maybe in the end my tears will dry on their own. And I will be able to find my way back to Earth where I would not be anymore bothered by that object. For now I think I'm lost in space. Still reaching for that thing that
I wanted the most.
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Juxtapose
Friday, February 13, 2009
6:11 PM
It has been 10 days since my last post. Before anything else,
Happy Valentines Day!This week has forced me to put more effort on my grades. A lot of people have been telling me that I was being too passive. So maybe it was time for me to finally wake up. Three quarters of being lazy and unproductive is enough. To think that being the way I am got me into honor roll. Haha.
I did something that I never thought I would do this week. And that is very, very
stupid. As much as I would like to wave it off, I could not because some people keep asking me why I had done that. It's an avalanche of emotions, couldn't they get it?
I'll be doing something interesting. So I'll finish this off.
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Wednesday, February 4, 2009
3:49 AM
Ate Karen's birthday is today!
I got the news from my adviser that my grades were higher. But one subject failed to meet the Honor Roll's qualifications. Not that I'm aiming for that, but if I can, why not?
I wonder what's wrong with me today.
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Say The Words I Can't Say
Sunday, February 1, 2009
9:34 PM
Tomorrow I'll be back to school again. :|
So these last five days had been very boring (as expected). I wasn't able to do anything productive as I had planned to, mostly because of the distractions the computer presents.
I'm just posting now for the sake of posting. :)) I don't want to see my blog stale.
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