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Love Notes
Friday, June 27, 2008
8:37 PM
Okay. So I have been trying to make any contact with Asteroid these past few days, but I've decided to avoid him at all costs.
Why?Because I know I'm becoming hopeful. Yes, I realized I'd already begun to hope without allowing myself to do so.
But...I don't want to forget this feeling.
I don't want to forget any little detail.
If I did, how would I be sure that he's real?
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Depression
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
4:02 AM
Everything's fine.
I hope so.If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him. Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering...
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Glum Mood
Saturday, June 21, 2008
2:46 AM
Again, there are no classes today. No classes translates to
NO ASTEROID so I woke up cranky.
Nothing active happened
yet. So I'll just start with an update of what happened over the days that I haven't blogged.
Wednesday, June 18- Arrived almost late, but at least I saw Asteroid. :))
- Had Mass.
- Watched "Jose Rizal" in Filipino.
- Tried very hard not to sleep at TLE and succeeded.
Thursday, June 19- Walked and ran for 15 minutes in PE.
- Watched "Jose Rizal" again in Filipino.
- Ate lunch at the room.
- Had re-orientation in the afternoon.
- Heard some gossips.
- Left a comment to Chloe at Friendster which I told her not to approve because people would know who Asteroid is.
Friday, June 20- Had a quiz on Chem, I passed but majority of the class didn't so that means we'll take another quiz on Monday [I wonder when this cycle would end].
- Had a play in CL.
- I found out that I haven't submitted that comment to Chloe, so I spent the whole afternoon thinking "Fuck, who received that comment?" Of course, I would worry about it because it says who Asteroid is. That made me crabby.
- Was called by Mrs. Gonzales in Trigo, made me answer a problem and I got it right. I think she noticed my glum mood so she didn't call me again for the next 40 minutes or so.
- I wasn't smiling anymore and Joy got worried and asked me why. I told her. And she told me some changes with Asteroid's attitude towards me. It made me MORE anxious than ever.
- Witnessed a fight.
- Didn't have a good night sleep.
Saturday, June 21- Did a load of assignments [literally!].
- Uncle was here.
- Went online but haven't opened my Friendster. I was very worried with what I will see there.
Sunday, June 22- It was raining cats and dogs.
- Did some of the assignments left.
- Brownout. Darn. It lasted for 2-3 hours, I suppose.
- Went online. Checked out FS. Nothing was there. But I still haven't found that friggin' comment.
So there is the whole recap of events. I left some things out because they might give you a hint on who Asteroid is.
Words of Wisdom:
"Intelligence is not measured by how many English words you speak or know." Always put that in your mind so that you won't feed yourself up with fallacies you think are true. Please, don't flatter yourself assuming you really are what you think you are.
Anyway, I'm not picking a fight. : ) I hope I made myself clear.
[EDIT] Look at what I found:
(Credits to Renz Bulseco)Haha, I almost died laughing. :))
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Keep Distance.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
7:24 PM
There are no classes today,
which means I won't see Asteroid. I just wanna sit down and sulk.
But at least I have time to finish all my backlogs.
I'd update this later. :)
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I was pretty surprised with this.
Naturally Smart
You're a naturally smart person. Your intelligence comes to you naturally, rather than from instruction - and you are better with applied or more real-world things... which comes in handy, here in the real world.
20% applied intelligence 40% natural intelligence
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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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Haha, just sharing. :))
And I'm almost finished with what I was told to do. :)
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Lunatic
I must be very very lucky these days.
Asteroid and I. We're getting closer!
My heart pounds whenever he talks to me. And when he looks, my heart is crashing into my chest. I should be used to his stares right now, but it always feels like it's for the first time.
Gee, I'm going crazyyyy!
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Friday the 13th
Friday, June 13, 2008
3:34 AM
It's Friday the 13th today yet so many good things had happened.
1.
Asteroid is talking to me. I mean, he
talks to me but it was mostly "Can I borrow..." or "Do you have?..." Now, it's actually a short conversation. At least I don't have to do the talking first for him to chat with me. Gee. :">
2.
We only had classes at the afternoon, which lessened my bag load. This morning the school made us take Pretests in Geometry and Chemistry knowing we don't have any knowledge at it. They said it was to test our wisdom on the aforementioned subjects. It's a relief that it won't affect our grades at all...
3. ...
which means there was no ___ today. Haha. It's for you to find out. [Of course, to those who know, shut the fuck up]
4.
I was almost over with what the teacher did to me. It's only a matter of days and I will be able to forget the whole thing... but of course, I'm still holding a bit grudge. I still think it was crossing the line and the things that teacher said was plain stupid.
5.
I still remember my past subjects, especially in Math. And I was able to answer the question my teacher asked correctly.
Aside from the mentioned, there are still some left, but I think I won't mention it anymore. :)
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Changes
Sunday, June 8, 2008
9:58 PM
Just wanted to update you with what happened to me these past few days.
I never enjoyed school much before. And I'm pretty surprised because now, I'm excited to attend classes. I know it isn't because I want to learn or the new environment or even the teachers. If I was being honest to myself, it was simply because of
Asteroid.
But still, a major fucking turning point happened. A teacher just abashed me. What the frank, it was the first time a teacher did that to me. Like, hell, she was acting as if I committed a very serious offense for her to bring up that I was the quiz bee champion, I was acting like a Grade One Student and all that.
It was hitting below the belt!Grr. I'm getting angry again. Shiznit.
( Anyway, I'd like to thank Chloe, Sydney, Joy, Aina, Mike, Omi, Andi and Esco for saying some encouraging words. Really, thank you. :] )Hopefully, things will be brighter as the days go by.
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After Hell
Thursday, June 5, 2008
1:24 AM
Today was better... and worse.
It was better because I hung-out with some of my new classmates, gaining new friends and all. The "introduce yourself" thing was already finished. My advertisements were already posted. There was nothing left to worry about.
It was worse because I was damn tired that it took a great deal of concentration to keep my eyes open. It was unpropitious because I found out that Math III is divided into two; my abhorrence grew more pronounced. It was worse because 27837643 didn't talk to me at all.
All morning I was waiting, hoping to hear 27837643's voice. I felt it was unfair that I almost initiated the talking. Almost. I know myself enough to think if I really would have the guts to do it. I can't even look straight into 27837643's eyes. :|
It didn't happen. I grew more and more disappointed.
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First Day Updates
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
10:03 PM
Just got home from school.
Thankfully, this day wasn't so bad. I'm still with my closest friends, so there's nothing to worry about, and most of the persons in the room are not strangers to me. I'm not looking forward to this school year but my adviser seems nice enough to make it endurable. Also, 4'6 76 58259, 27837643 41 63 252776283! [It's up to you to find out what means. If you did, I hope you won't spill the beans.] That was so unexpected! That ought to make me refrain from absences and give me inspiration. :)
Anyway, my works are moved to
Writer's Block. Please, I beg of you, refrain from copying. It's not fair.
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Gone with the Wind.
Monday, June 2, 2008
1:19 AM
Tomorrow will be hell. I know it.
Hopefully, it will not be as bad I think. Dang.
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Some jitters.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
7:06 PM
OMGWTFBBQ!I've seen the Exclusive Clip of Twilight Movie from MTV Movie Awards. Gee, Robert is so fierce. He really is becoming my
true-to-life Edward Cullen.
And the book cover for Breaking Dawn is already released, as well as the first chapter. I suppose that Eclipse [Special Edition] is still isn't out here at Philippines, so I have no choice but to order one from Amazon.
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I'm starting to love Coldplay. I couldn't stop listening to "The Scientist" [I remember Edward whenever I hear it, haha, must be the lyrics]. I'm amazed how their songs show sensitivity and desperate desire. Hopefully, I'd be able to buy their album this weekend.
I'm off to short story writing. :) I'm on high. :))
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