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Tuesday, December 30, 2008
10:04 PM
Today, I have started doing my English Project, Filipino Project and submissions for the Publication's Literary Folio. The latter I can accept since it's my duty but just how pathetic it is to do the former two when it's vacation?
Oh, I told myself I won't be placing any complaints on this entry. Guess I can't help myself.
I haven't slept yesterday. This is getting out of hand, it's becoming a habit. All because I wanted to finish Vampire Knight Guilty and in the end, I found out that there are still 3 episodes left. Grr. If it wasn't for Kaname I won't be giving up my holiday relaxation. Teehee. I pity my desktop, I think it haven't got any rest since Monday. I'm turning it off later.
Ah, the day before New Year. I remember I told myself I should finish all my backlogs before new year. I couldn't. Haha. I got distracted... again.
What would be my resolutions? I wonder if I could even fulfill those things. I wasn't able to last year. I want a haircut. I'll ask mother about it later.
I'll continue with what I was doing. Happy New Year everyone!
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Addictions and Restrictions
It's 12:45 in the morning and I'm still awake. Guess that's normal, for me anyway. Lately, I haven't been blogging much so I think it's best that I narrate everything that happened since the date I last posted until this very minute.
Haha.
The day before Christmas... well, I still haven't slept so I'm not on my senses. I went online, greeted some people, talked to somebody on the phone, and ate. Of course, I ate and ate till I was full. And when it was time to sleep, I was knocked out. Pure exhaustion and sleep deprivation. Maybe I should restrict myself doing such things next time. Or I might end up losing my memory.
My relatives went to our pad on the afternoon of Christmas Day. It was a good thing since I missed my favorite cousin, Nicole, much and had a chance to talk with her about random things.
The next days were blah. And tomorrow, it'll be New Year's Eve. Days are passing me by and I still haven't started at least 1 of my projects.
Currently, I'm watching
Vampire Knight and
Vampire Knight Guilty. Oh God, if there were only people as gorgeous as them, I'll be really willing to shed all my blood for them to drink (especially
Kaname). And Immortality... I desire it. I'm weird, ha! Anyway, the show is really good. And it has tons of handsome, deserved-to-be-drooled-at guys. ;)
And I discovered a new band:
Loveholic. They're Koreans and their songs are really sad, could really bring you down at times. I personally like Rainy Day because the lyrics and melody are so dramatic I even find myself almost crying after listening to it.
I need to let you go now. Let's end it now.
I've always been standing by your side.
I needed to throw away my love, my never meant to be love.
-- Favorite Line
Listen to it. I'll bet you'd feel emotional. Just as I did.
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A Lot of Shit, Really
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
10:48 PM
2 more episodes to go and I'm finished with Elfen Lied. Oh, what should I watch next?
Today is December 24. A day before Christmas. I wonder what are we going to do for our
Noche Buena. Teehee. Anyway, there weren't many carolers nowadays compared to last year (only 2 groups sang at our house). Maybe having a neighbor with
super brave dogs is the culprit. Not that I enjoy giving away coins to them, but somehow Christmas won't be complete without those children singing Christmas carols.
I wanted to experience that thing. To try caroling for just one Christmas. I never got the chance. And it would be very awkward if I did it now. So much for letting childhood things pass me by.
I'm feeling nostalgic. Haha.
There were many things I didn't do as a child. Like play in the rain, go out and play games like sipa, piko (I don't even know how to play them until now) and that, caroling. I was much preoccupied with making my grades great and making my parents proud of me. Back then I thought it would be the greatest thing I could say when I grow up. Now, I realized I shouldn't have. Maybe I got good grades but I shouldn't have let my childhood slip away without doing anything a child must do. I could never get it back.
So maybe that's why I'm doing crazy stuffs now that I'm in High School. (Excuse me, I'm not that WILD. They just consider me crazier than my siblings) I want to be crazy. I want to do crazy things. I want to do things that a teenager should do. Because I might end up regretting that I let one period of my life go to waste again. Grades matter; I try to keep them stable. But I'm not as much of a grade freak I was back then.
Oh Christmas. Haha. It really makes me think about such things.
I noticed that a lot of people already know who my Asteroid is. I told them, that is. But the fear of him knowing is gone. I don't know why... but I'm not that scared anymore whether he finds out or not.
Talking about him makes me sad. And hurt. So I'll stop.
I really liked what I did with my, Chloe's and Sydney's friendster profile. I made them almost the same look except for the color. Even the music players were alike. I had fun tweaking the codes. Haha.
Ugh, episode 12 of Elfen Lied is still not finished loading.
So, what do I do now?
...
I know. I think I'll eat another slice of pizza. Wait, I'll get one.
...
WTF?! The pesky cat ate some of the pizza. There were three a while ago and now there's still three... but ALL THE TOPPINGS ARE GONE! Sometimes, pets are reaaaaaally a pain in the neck.
My submissions for the Publication are not yet finished. Again, I neglected to write. I was supposed to, actually I was already writing... but I just got kind of distracted. Same with my projects. It's so peculiar how a thing about him makes my head spin and my focus torn apart.
Going back to him, again.
It's so pathetic I know. Everything in my world seems to be connected to him. Music, writing... my obsessions, they seem to be his too. Even random things that happen to me, he always finds a way to butt in and make himself a part of them.
I waited yesterday. And he didn't go online.
Yes. I'm in pain. I'm in denial. Yet I'm still waiting. Haha. I know I'm a pathetic specimen of human being.
Oh, buffering is already over !! Im'ma watch now. Pardon me for any wrong grammar/spelling because I haven't slept since yesterday. Haha. :))
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! :)
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Somehow, Somewhere
Monday, December 22, 2008
4:08 PM
Ah, it's so cold I feel like I could be one of those frozen statues in Narnia.
Anyway, it's still morning and I feel like blogging even though I have nothing to blog about.
I haven't got much sleep yesterday. I had random dreams that kept me awake most of the time. :)) It's like the "I don't want to sleep anymore `coz I might see it again.." thing. I was scared, particularly with the last dream because they involved serial killers and the like. So much for watching and appreciating Elfen Lied. Kidding.
I suddenly remembered to count how many times I've been late. As far as I can remember... 5 times. And I only started coming late to school since December 2008 (this month, actually). If I can commit 5 tardiness in just 2 weeks, I can commit 10 absences per month. Haha. No, of course, I won't do that.
I haven't eaten breakfast yet and it's already 9 AM. Gee, I gotta go.
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Mature Content
Talk about nudity, violence and mature content.
I had a blast watching the first 3 episodes of
Elfen Lied. Haha. Like, the first 7 minutes of Episode 1 was really full of action and bloooooood. And it's opening song, whoa, sounds very churchy to me (Although, religion is not related to the program). Since it has only 13 episodes, finishing it by tomorrow wouldn't be a hassle. YEAH, THIS SHOW HAS THE THREE KEYWORDS I MENTIONED EARLIER. I know you're hands are itching to
get a hold of this. Teehee.
Another new blogskin. I don't know, but I want my blog to constantly change it's look so it wouldn't be boring.
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Screaming Out Loud
Friday, December 19, 2008
8:39 PM
I thought I would be facing one of the most horrible encounters I could have in my life yesterday.
I was wrong.
Nothing terribly scary happened, although I have been anticipating it from the time I woke up. I've been thinking how to explain things in the most efficient way possible and how to convince that I am telling the truth. Maybe Mom knew that I wasn't
THAT KIND of person. Of course, I am not.
Where can I buy nail polish that doesn't chip off fast? So far, the best I've tried is Face Shop (they've got nice colors, too). I think I'll just add strengthener. There is no way I am spending my extremely long vacation without putting nail polish on. That's practically a
crime.And hell, something very unusual happened. Apparently, I was too happy that I couldn't sleep for a whole night.
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911
Thursday, December 18, 2008
8:37 PM
Mom's furious with me.
And I don't know what the hell I would do or how would I explain. It seems that she won't hear me out.
Hope I could do it this time.
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To Hell With That
Saturday, December 13, 2008
1:47 AM
Fuck the Halls with shits and assholes, Tralalalalalalaputa!Problems never end, do they? Here I go again, experiencing probably one of the greatest dilemmas I ever had. I hope I'll find a solution to it immediately.
Yesterday (11.12.08), I played DOTA with my friends. It's so nice to experience the same thing over again because I wasn't with them for days. There were some things I have to take care of and it's so important that I have to sacrifice even the things that make me happy.
We ended up winning the second round, although it was pretty obvious that it wasn't fair. Haha. I was with some of the most excellent players. I did help them too!
I haven't slept last Thursday (11.11.08) because I was busy with
Counter Strike: Condition Zero. I got addicted to it again. I started playing at 9 PM and when I switched windows, I was surprised to see that it was already 1 AM! My classmate, Nerizza, went online and we chatted about the presentation the next day. Then, she called at 3 AM. :)) We ended up whispering to each other. And the next day we were both late. I, because of a traffic jam and she, because of some problems.
Vacation is fast approaching. 4 days to go and I'll be staying home, particularly watching anime again. Haha. I plan to see
Vampire Knight Guilty. Speaking of anime, I'm enjoying
Code Geass. I was surprised at how cold-hearted Lelouch (the protagonist, or should I say antagonist?) could be. I was wondering how could he ruin the lives of those people who were important to him. I, even though I wanted to attain something badly, wouldn't want to sacrifice anyone's happiness.
I received a wristwatch yesterday. I'm wondering who was the one who had given that? I still have no clue.
I'll continue watching Mai-HiME for now. Did I mention that it is also a good show?
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008
3:45 AM
I'm tired. Dead tired. So much for walking the whole day, speaking so much and having to deal with responsibilities. I hate to admit it but... yes, I really am busy. And that means I have to give up very important things.
Another thing.
Some people are truly a waste of oxygen. I'll rip their heads off one by one.
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......
Monday, December 8, 2008
3:47 AM
I took one look at you
That's all I meant to do
And my heart stood still.It broke again.
Yes, again... the nth time this month. And I wonder how much can I still take?
It makes me sad.
Really really sad.
Give me time, this'll pass. I hope so.
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