Walk Down Memory Lane.
2 more episodes to go and I'm finished with Elfen Lied. Oh, what should I watch next?
Today is December 24. A day before Christmas. I wonder what are we going to do for our
Noche Buena. Teehee. Anyway, there weren't many carolers nowadays compared to last year (only 2 groups sang at our house). Maybe having a neighbor with
super brave dogs is the culprit. Not that I enjoy giving away coins to them, but somehow Christmas won't be complete without those children singing Christmas carols.
I wanted to experience that thing. To try caroling for just one Christmas. I never got the chance. And it would be very awkward if I did it now. So much for letting childhood things pass me by.
I'm feeling nostalgic. Haha.
There were many things I didn't do as a child. Like play in the rain, go out and play games like sipa, piko (I don't even know how to play them until now) and that, caroling. I was much preoccupied with making my grades great and making my parents proud of me. Back then I thought it would be the greatest thing I could say when I grow up. Now, I realized I shouldn't have. Maybe I got good grades but I shouldn't have let my childhood slip away without doing anything a child must do. I could never get it back.
So maybe that's why I'm doing crazy stuffs now that I'm in High School. (Excuse me, I'm not that WILD. They just consider me crazier than my siblings) I want to be crazy. I want to do crazy things. I want to do things that a teenager should do. Because I might end up regretting that I let one period of my life go to waste again. Grades matter; I try to keep them stable. But I'm not as much of a grade freak I was back then.
Oh Christmas. Haha. It really makes me think about such things.
I noticed that a lot of people already know who my Asteroid is. I told them, that is. But the fear of him knowing is gone. I don't know why... but I'm not that scared anymore whether he finds out or not.
Talking about him makes me sad. And hurt. So I'll stop.
I really liked what I did with my, Chloe's and Sydney's friendster profile. I made them almost the same look except for the color. Even the music players were alike. I had fun tweaking the codes. Haha.
Ugh, episode 12 of Elfen Lied is still not finished loading.
So, what do I do now?
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I know. I think I'll eat another slice of pizza. Wait, I'll get one.
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WTF?! The pesky cat ate some of the pizza. There were three a while ago and now there's still three... but ALL THE TOPPINGS ARE GONE! Sometimes, pets are reaaaaaally a pain in the neck.
My submissions for the Publication are not yet finished. Again, I neglected to write. I was supposed to, actually I was already writing... but I just got kind of distracted. Same with my projects. It's so peculiar how a thing about him makes my head spin and my focus torn apart.
Going back to him, again.
It's so pathetic I know. Everything in my world seems to be connected to him. Music, writing... my obsessions, they seem to be his too. Even random things that happen to me, he always finds a way to butt in and make himself a part of them.
I waited yesterday. And he didn't go online.
Yes. I'm in pain. I'm in denial. Yet I'm still waiting. Haha. I know I'm a pathetic specimen of human being.
Oh, buffering is already over !! Im'ma watch now. Pardon me for any wrong grammar/spelling because I haven't slept since yesterday. Haha. :))
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! :)
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